Sometimes it doesn't just rain it fucking POORS

Ok so this last week and a half was kind of crappy. William and I had our first fight. Then we decided we were getting too much of each other. He told me he's not going to Lubbock. He doesn't believe he can work, do school, and pay for his truck and do it all succesfully. I understand it just sucks and hurts. So now I don't know what I am going to do. I don't think I can do that move all by myself again. It was great when I first moved up there. I always had Daniel and Anna. But then last summer we never saw each other and I was very lonely. I don't think I can do it again. I also don't want Will to be the only reason I stay. I think thats weak. I do love him, but its just a little shaky. I don't know its alll mixed up. Oh well later days...