Looking for work...AGAIN

wow, I have never had to look for a job so much. But then again I guess I am pretty young and I've only been in the job force for a little over 4 years or less. I don't know. I walked into work Momday morning and they just let me go. Told me they didn't have the money to pay me anymore. Thats ok. I was gonna find another job anyways. It would've been nice to find it though before I was out of a job. I really didn't like working there. The couple that owned it were always fighting. ALWAYS. Got on my nerves. Anyways so now here I am looking for another job. SUCKS ASS. I can't wait to move back to Lubbock. This is crazy. I don't mean to complain so much. I know I need to stop. My life isn't bad at all. I just think it is. Oh well I'll just try and count my blessings and be happy. Well later days...

Cool Website

Ok so I ran across a cool website while at my job. (By the way I don't know if I can last till May at this rate. They are driving me up the wall.) Anyways the website I found is...

www.wimp.com

This site is so randomly funny. There's so much crap on it. There are videos, games, pictures, animations everything. Its too funny. I keep going to it and finding something new. Some of the things though might scare you. I was looking at this one that was titled beauty quiz. It was two pics side by side. It looked like German writing above them. Anyways you're starring at the thing and all of a sudden this devil jumps out and starts screaming. I almost had a heart attack. It scared me that bad. I hate those things.

Anyways another sight I've always liked, I found it a couple of years ago is...

www.threebrain.com

This one is cool too. Its got rock videos on it. This band obviously has nothing else in there life but to make animated retarded videos. It cracks me up so much. Anyways thought I'd tell you about those 2 sites. They are awesome.

Later days...

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Do you ever just feel like crying

What the hell. I just had this long post written here and it dissapeared. That sucks ass. I guess I'll have to try and write it again and see if it works. What a waste of time.

Ok so do you ever just want to cry. I am in such a funk right now. Actually I'm pissed off at this stupid blog so I guess I'm out of that funk. Anyways I just can't seem to be happy right now. I've been moping around for the last couple days it feels like. My week started out ok. I was so excited Monday cause I bought my first car and it went downhill from there.

Anyways lately I've kinda felt like my whole relationship with William has been onesided. I feel like I'm giving and giving and getting nothing in return. I think I've figured out my problem. Its all my problem and no one elses. I show my love I guess tangibly. (sp?) I like to give things to the people I care about. I want to see that they have what they want and need. William is different in that respect I guess. I keep thinking I am getting nothing in return and that I am on the losing end here. This where I am just being a brat. He shows me he loves me in so many other ways. He knows that love isn't always tangible. (sp?) At least I guess he does. Its just me. I need to get over myself. I'm such a brat. Maybe now I can get out of my funk. Who knows.

I think another part of my problem is that I've gotten a big head. Various people tell me, "oh you're the best thing thats ever happened to William." Ok nobody probably should've told me this in the first place. Cause so what if its true. I really don't know that. And you tell me one little thing nice and my head swells up. Now I think oh well if I'm the best thing for him then why don't I feel like it. Why do I feel like I'm just following wherever he takes me instead of trying to help him more. Hell he's probably falling back into his old routines. Maybe I'm not the best thing thats happened to him anymore. Maybe my usefullness is over. Who knows. This sucks. Why can't I just be happy with what I have. Why do I have to over analyze shit. I wish my mind would just shut off sometimes. No it just keeps going and going. Why do I always have to worry. Why do I feel like if he's not home right after work its cause he doens't want to be with me. I am such a fucking worry wort. Is that right. I've always heard the expression but never seen it written down. Anyways gosh I'm such a FUCKING BRAT.

Now if this damn thing would publish things would be great. Later days...

Crappy Monday

Wow my Monday started out pretty well. I went with my dad to Brenham, cashed my check, looked at some cars. We came back to Hempstead and checked out the one we'd seen the night before. We looked at it. Talked to the guy, test drove it. Let it run for awhile. Checked it out some more. We stuck a deal with the guy. I got a 90 Pontiac Sunbird. Not bad looking at all. Pretty clean. So I went home got William up. We went back and paid for the car. I drove it to the video store. Which is two blocks from where I bought the car. Left it there. We transferred the title and I paid the taxes and everything on it. I bought the car for $1050, paid $150 on TTL. After that we got in Williams truck and drove to Brenham and got insurance. I paid a little over $100 for that. We drove back to Hempstead, left his truck at the video store, took the car and got it inspected. It passed. Ran fine and everything. We go back to the video store to get Wills truck. We drive home. He followed me. Just as soon as I start to turn into the drive way the car quits on me. It jerked and died. I tried several times to start it up and put it in gear. Everytime I started it and put it in gear it jerked and died. I called my dad he came and looked at it. He jacked it up and spun the tire. After he did that he told me to start the car. Sure enough it started and would go into gear. He thinks the cv joint locked up. Anyways so Devin and I tried to go grocery shopping. We went to turn left into Fuel Depot to get gas. It died on me. I was half in the road and half in the station. I called my dad he said he'd be there in a few minutes. I had Devin get in the drivers side and put it in nuetral so maybe we could get it a little more out of the road. I pushed it a little. Anyways I guess when I pushed it I was able to get it to unlock some. Cause I was able to start it up and get it to the pump. I then drove home taking only right turns. I had to go all the way around to get home but it stayed going. Whenever I turn left it locks up.

Ok so I never hit anything. The guy I bought it from said it never did it. When we test drove it we made a u-turn going left. No clue what happened. Anyways my dad called him last night and the guy is having it looked at now. Anyways I hope it all works. My dad is gonna try and get my money back if nothing comes of it. Well I gotta get back to work. Later days...

Bellamy Brothers Here We COME

Totally cool William has finally gotten a Friday off. This is like the first one in ages. Anyways William, me and his friends Brandon are all gonna go Friday the 18th to go see the Bellamy Brothers at Tumbleweed Texas. It's gonna be soooo coool. I am so like totally excited. Anyways I am about to get off work. I have to go cash my check, pay my cell phone bill and other things. Then I have to take a Texas History test and then its off to Chappel Hill to go do a little karaoke and deliver some koozies. Well later days...

Possible Car

Well I think I found the car I want. My cousin has it. Its a 91 Chevy Blazer 4x4. This is as close as I've found to my dream vehicle. It'll be fun to play with it and maybe fix it up. Its a boy toy, but its gonna be my GIRLS TOY! This will be cool. There's only one draw back. Overdrive doesn't work. It runs good though. I really want this vehicle. He's gonna sell it to me for $1200. Well thats all I really have to say right now. I guess I'll try and write more later. Later days...

Why the F*%# is Blinn so Bassackwards

They really piss me off you know. This is the last fucking time I attend Blinn. They are so stupid. The way they release funds is so stupid. Because of the shit I'm only getting back a part of my refund. The rest will be released in March. That is so fucking stupid. This puts a major crimp in my vehicle plans. I just need to get a vehicle so I can actually be able to go and do something without beggins somebody else for a ride. I hate that. I hate having to ask if I can go someplace. I'm fucking 22 not 15. This sucks ass... Laters...

Its Official

My dad and Nora are finally engaged.
It took em awhile but they are finally
gonne tie the knot. No date set yet. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!

My worth

I am worth $1,275,000.00 on HumanForSale.com

Funeral

Well, my dad came by my work this morning. My great uncle passes away this morning. Its not unexpected. I feel bad for his wife and children. I think they needed him more than he needed them. Its a good thing. He was in way too much pain. He couldn't do anything didn't want to eat. Just couldn't even take care of himself. He spent his whole like drinking. He never got drunk drunk just always had a few beers everyday. I guess he just thought he had to have that in his system to function. I kep telling William it'll tear him up. He'll get old and won't be useful to nobody. I don't think its getting through.

Well I guess this week I will have a funeral to go to. I don't mean it to sound like its a hardship on me. Cause its not. I should go and pay my respects. Its just I don't like funerals. Or funeral homes, or graveyards or anything like that.

Well later days...

Hope it still works

Wow I hope My blog is OK. I tried to change the template with one from a zanga site. Well it didn't work right. My blog became nonexistent and all you could see was the drawing and the words God Bless The Broken Road. Well now as you can see I have changed it to black. I like the black. I hope it looks good. Its a lot different than the pink I've had on here forever. Well just wanted to make sure that it still works.

Not Much New

Well not much new is going on in my life. Just working and not doing enough work for class. Wow this sucks right now. I really want to be going all the time but when I am I want to be slow. Oh well it'll all turn out right in the end I guess.

Other than my dull life things are good. They would probably be even better if I would read for my stupid classes. I have a test that opens up this week. I have to go to Blinn to take it. I think I will go on Sunday. I have a lot of studying to do.

I tried to read last night and then I got pissed off. After getting pissed off I took a bath. As usual I had the water way too hot. But it feels sooooo goooood. So I got dizzy. Finally when I got done being dizzy, I developed a massive headache. So I took two tylenol pm's and went to sleep. I thought I was dreaming when Will came in and kissed me and told me he was home. I got up at midnight thinking I had been dreaming. Sure enough though he was on the computer. He's good to me. He puts up with all my crap. I don't see how but he does. I can be such a demanding, controlling bitch at times. I can't help it. Later I'll think about it and be why was I like that.

Whats that saying hindsight is.... Yeah I wish I could've controlled the way I acted. I'm just gonna have to make myself slow down and deal with the issue and not run off and get pissed off and shoot off my mouth. Oh well. Tina, Misty's baby's grandmother, called me this morning to set up a time to meet with me to plan the baby shower. Wow thats gonna be at the end of this month and the baby is due in April.

Wow my paragraphs don't make any sense. Well I'll end this entry now. Hope everyone is in good health and good fortune. Take it easy and be careful in this ugly weather. Later days...