Stupid Person

Ok so someone egged Wills truck last night. He thinks it was one of my friends. In fact he thinks that it was Ricky. I asked Ricky and he promises that he didn't do it. I can only believe him. If I do find out it was one of my friends though I am going to be one pissed off person. We are trying to remain friends not enemies. Whoever did this thinks they might be helping me but they are dead wrong. That just pisses me off. If I find out who did do it they better just stay away from me cause I am sooooo mad at whoever did it. Just had to get that off my chest. Later days...

Every Day Gets A Little Better

Well things are starting to look up. I finally got a job yesterday. After a month of looking it finally paid off. I was talking to Stephanie (she works for Verizon at WalMart) and she told me that Will Detering was looking for waitstaff. Well Will Detering owns Liendos. (the only nice place to go in Hempstead) Anyways she called him at noon and we had the interview at 1:30. I know the guy cause I did work for him at Vinyl Graphics. Anyways he hired me on the spot. The only drawback is that I don't start for another week. He's already training someone nect week and he wants me to train the week after.

So anyways I got my refund check yesterday and I took my car to get checked out. Wouldn't you know the started gave out. I guess the car knew it was finally gonna get fixed (hopefully) so it just pooped out. Lucky Brandy had come in her truck too so I had a ride home.

I talked to Jessica last night. I'm gonna stay at there house next week and watch Erica and Desiree. This way she doesn't have to drive from Houston everyday. They're just starting this new job. I'm not doing anything so I offered to help them out. The only thing is that they live next door to William. Oh well if he doesn't like it he'll just have to get over it. He's the one that said that me and Jessica would probably really like each other. And of course we do. We're pretty good friends.

So now I am waiting to get a call about my car. I hope he gets it fixed. I would like to be able to go out tonight. Well I'll write more later. Later days...

P.S. Thanks for everyones support right now. It means a lot to know that you all care...

So Empty

I hate this shit. I feel so empty it hurts. I miss the cuddling and the kissing. I really need to get out of here. I can't stand it. I miss him...

Its All Over But The Crying

Well Will and I broke up this morning. It was amicable though. So hopefully we can stillbe friends. We say we can but whoknows what will happen. It hurts a lot but I know I will get over it. Well later days...

Sometimes it doesn't just rain it fucking POORS

Ok so this last week and a half was kind of crappy. William and I had our first fight. Then we decided we were getting too much of each other. He told me he's not going to Lubbock. He doesn't believe he can work, do school, and pay for his truck and do it all succesfully. I understand it just sucks and hurts. So now I don't know what I am going to do. I don't think I can do that move all by myself again. It was great when I first moved up there. I always had Daniel and Anna. But then last summer we never saw each other and I was very lonely. I don't think I can do it again. I also don't want Will to be the only reason I stay. I think thats weak. I do love him, but its just a little shaky. I don't know its alll mixed up. Oh well later days...

Daniel's Home

Woohoo Daniel is home for Spring Break. I'm supposed to drive to Rockdale on Tuesday to go spend the day with him. I am so excited. This is gonna be a great time. I am so psyched. If this gets screwed up like Christmas did it will be so upsetting. I miss him so much. I always want to tell him so much but we rarely get to talk and when we do I'd rather tell him in person. Oh well.

Well I guess Will and I had our first fight last night. I think it was good for us. We got a lot out in the open and I think we are ok. Things are gonna be ok. I know. We didn't just go to bed mad we got it out in the open and talked it over. We can make I know we can. Well other than that life is boring. I am still looking for a job. I put my resume into Verizon Wireless the other day. Hopefully they'll hire me. I don't know. I'm so broke it isn't even funny.

My sister had her baby shower today. It was fun. They made toilet paper diapers on me and Misty. It was pretty fun. The cake was cute. It was soooo funny. She'd gotten a card in the mail and Nora brought it with her to the baby shower. I had Misty open it cause it might've been a baby shower gift or something. It was a card from State Bank thanking her for opening an account. Well thats about it. I'll write more later. Later days...

LIFE IS SOOOOO GOOD!!!

I know I've probably been down lately. Sorry about that. It just takes me a few days to stockpile my life and realize how wonderfully lucky I am. My life has been really good. There have been a few shitty times. But for the most part I have enjoyed the shit out of it. I really wish the sun would rise. Cause I wanna watch it. So I still haven't found a job. And now my car won't run. But other than that I have so much love surrounding me that I'm fine. I love my life. I love everything. I am in a very very good mood right now. Maybe if I knew who all read this I would explain. But most of you I just couldn't tell the truth to. You few people that I love to death and trust with every secret of my soul you'd know, but the rest of you I love you anyways. I can't help it. I love my life. Its a good life.

1. I have my daddy.
Who is engaged to his girlfriend.
Which I am so excited they set a date.
2. I have a wonderful boyfriend.
Whom I love dearly.
Love is a wonderful.
3.I have best friends who support me in everything I do.
I love you Marcie and Daniel.
4. I have a roof over my head.
I get to sleep everynight in the same bed with my wonderful boyfriend.
I love him. I love him.
5. Best of all I get to tell all these people that I do love them.

As you can see I am very full of love. I've probably left something out that I love but its all good. Cause I love everything. Later days.....

6:15 AM March 03, 2005.