Sad Day

So today I withdrew from school. I feel like I need a break from school. Marcie the other day mentioned to me Americorps. So I applied for it and I am already getting calls for jobs in Massachusettes and Birmingham and other places. So on the 12th of August I will be going home for good at least for a little while. Then I might be moving to another state. Well I really can't think of anything else to write.So I will talk to you laters... 

Ryan Cabrera

Ok so this post here was supposed to have something with Ryan Cabrera. Unfortunetly the computer garbage didn't work and it didn't show up. So instead I will tell you about Ryan. For one thing he is too adorable. I was watching the Ashlee Simpson show and they make such a cute couple. He's too funny. He's not the kind of guy that would put up with bullshit from anyone. He knows what he wants and he is going to get it. You know what that means. He will go far in the music biz. I wish I had doors open up to me. But then again I'm not that great. Yeah I can sing. I can carry a tune, but apparently I don't have texture. I totally understand this. I was in choir ever since 4th grade. So I have been trained to sing so that my voice blends well with others. Its not a bad thing it just means that I probably couldn't make it out there in the music biz. On the other hand if I could sing harmony then I could possibly be a back up singer. I guess the problem isn't singing it. Its hearing it. Anyways I sort of strayed. Ryan Cabrera is too cute. I love his music. I want his CD. Thats all that needs to be said. Laters...

Havana Nights, Shrek 2

Well as far as sequels go I guess I can give two thumbs up to each of the above mentioned sequels. Havana Nights was pretty good. It wasn't as good as the first Dirty Dancing but then again you can get much better than Patrick Swayze. He had a role in this movie too. I was glad he was there to inspire. I never thought that he could get old but it is surely happening to him. He didn't;t look as wonderful as he did in the first movie but then again he was about 20 years younger. Oh well he still looked good. Diego Luna who plays the main male character in this movie was really good. I thought he was really adorable. I kept trying to place him cause I knew I'd seen him before. I just looked him up and he was in "The Terminal." He was adorable in that movie too. He was also in "Open Range." I haven't really seen that one yet. I like this young actor a lot. As for the girl I wasn't so impressed by her. She seemed a little too naive. I understand that yes that is what she was but I just didn't get her all the way. I wasn't sure who she was trying to be. Overall though it was a good movie and a great love story. I like that its based on true events.

As for Shrek 2. It was so funny. I went and saw it yesterday with Ashley, a friend of mine from work. It was so great. I enjoyed a lot. I feel it might even be better than the first one. The kingdom of FAR FAR AWAY looked like Hollywood which was pretty funny. The love story between Shrek and Fiona was layed out perfectly. Everything about this movie was positively delightful. Hmm some people may begin to think that my blog is now a review on movies. I wouldn't take it too seriously though. I like just about every movie I see as long as it is a love story or a comedy.

Yesterday was "Wrapped in Redford" on AMC. I can't tell you how excited that made me seeing as I absolutely adore Robert Redford. Unfortunately I forgot about it until I flipped across it that evening. So I only got to see "The Natural", and part of "Barefoot in the Park". I've always wanted to see Barefoot and I didn't even get to see most of it. I only saw the last 15 min probably. Oh well. So nothing much else is going on. Thank goodness summer school is almost over. I keep thinking about maybe taking a semester off. Maybe I can cool off and figure out what I really want to do with my life. I'm taking forever to earn my degree and I'm not sure I really want to finish it. I know if I took a semester off I'd probably be so ready to come back I'd finish it and not have a problem. But then again to lose a semester would be crazy. Anyways more laters....

Strange occurrences

Ok so maybe its not that strange an occurrence but the other day when I went to get my root canal and I was panicking I felt like my mom. Or at least I felt like this is what she must've been looking at from underneath an oxygen mask. When my mom was in the hospital I remember looking down at her and she just had these wide frightened eyes. Whenever I felt like I couldn't breathe I started to panic. I had the laughing gas mask over my nose and I suddenly had the view that my mother must have had. I know my eyes were wide. I had a plastic damn over my mouth and I was supposed to be breathing through my nose. I was unable to breathe though at that point in time cause I was scared so I just had the image of my mom in mind. Its so strange how these things creep back up on you. I miss my mom all the time. There are times when I want to talk to her so bad and I can't. I'm so thankful that I have my dad. If I didn't then where would I be...

So pissed off

I can't explain it. I don't know why I am so pissed off, but I am. I don't want to deal with anybody. I don't want to do anything. I just want to do nothing. I don't want to be taking classes right now. I don't want to go to work. I want to tell some of my co-workers to fuck off cause they're pissing me off that much. Guys really tick me off. I can't stand people that you just meet trying to be all familiar with you. Don't call me darlin and honey. I don't know you. I don't belong to you and I don't want to be called darlin you stupid sack of shit. Anyways why is it that the one guy that I always want I can't have. I guess I just think too highly of myself. I always fall for the nice guys. Guys who are my friends or who could become a good friend really quick. I just can't leave it at that. I have to try and obtain them. I can't settle for anybody normal I have to have a prize. I tell you this guy Steve at work is a prize. Nicest guy you could ever meet. Isn't mean to anyone. Great personality. Wonderful attitude. He has an energy that makes you want to be around him. I find myself drawn to him. He just makes you want to be around. I love to work with him. Anyways he's the best Student Manager we have. Christa sucks hind tit never doing shit, and well Eddie has just gotten too bossy for his britches. Everyone I swear is just trying to piss me off. You can call me a bitch once or twice but when you keep it up and I don't know if you're kidding or not don't expect the outcome to be great. You piss me off you will feel my vengeance, or at least I won't be the bright shiny person I normally am. So kiss my ass. Anyways other than that I am just... Well I guess that I am here and that is about all I can say for me right now. I am here... I am alive... I will be ok... The world doesn't hate me... What can I say I'll be over it shortly... RIGHT....

July 20 2004

So yesterday I took my first test in POLS and boy did I ever fail it. Of course what can I expect since I didn't even study. Gosh I just want out of this class. I have a test tomorrow in History and boy is it gonna suck major ass. I really wish I hadn't done this second semester. I really should have just taken the first summer session and relaxed this one. But if I wanna graduate in the next two years I have to do it. Not that i'm working all that hard on it. This all just gets so discouraging. Did I spell that right. I really don't know. I used to be good at spelling but now its a little questionable. I'm listenin to Jason Mraz. I love his music. He always puts me in a good mood.
 
I went to the Jessica Simpson concert on Saturday the 17th. It was really good. Her opening act Ryan Cabrera was really awesome. I like his music. Its sounds like Jason Mraz and Josh Kelly. What a great artist. So anyways Jessica was pretty cool. You would think after the last few months of saying what a ditz she is and can't sing I would never have gone but I'm starting to like her music. Ace would be like what the hell is gone wrong with you. I don't know. So anyways it was a great concert. Whenever she did a waredrobe change they would play snipets from here tv shows. It was really funny. I went with Eddie, Barbara and Chris. It was a good time. Well thats really all I have to say right now...

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TIRED

So I had to be at work at 6 this morning. That really sucks ass. Now I'm extremely tired. It is 7 at night. I went to my classes. They were the usual boring crap that comes with POLS and history. Actually history isn't so bad. Its just too long. Anytime that I have to sit for 2 hours is not a good situation. Then I ate lunch with the Joanna, Christa, Ninfa, and Cyndi. I don't ever eat much now cause shortly after I do my tooth starts hurting. I need some soup. I called the dentist he's lettingme have more vicodin. The only problem is I can't go get it. I have to wait for someone to take me. I had a very awesome conversation with Eringe yesterday. She was on her way home from Wichita Falls. Glad she called it made me feel better to have someone to talk to too. I can't get Daniel and Anna to answer there phones. I really need to go to Walmart but I can't get anyone to take me at the moment. I am so tired. I might go to bed early. Take an extra vicodin and crash. Yeah that sounds good....

Some People Suck Ass

OK so I bought this product on e-bay in August. Here it is July and I still have not recieved that item. The seller has stopped answering my e-mails. What a fucking bith. Anyways other than that I have this killer tooth ache. Which of course I am taking vicodin for. Doesn't always seem to help. I have to have a root canal. Sounds painful. I'm scared. Anyway the root canal isn't for another week and a half. I don't think the vicodin will hold out. I hope the dentist will give me more. I got a 4.0 for the last summer session. I don't know if I've mentioned that. Yeeeehaaw. I am so happy about that. I decided to skip classes today. I want to go to the mall, but I can't figure out the bus routes. I am very lost. I guess I might just go outside and catch a bus. See where it takes me. Well talk to you laters...

Happy 4th of July

Yaaay, ok so I just got my first 4.0. I got A's in both my classes this summer. This is so awesome. I'm so happy. Anyways I had a good weekend at home. I started off spending Saturday with my friend Kelly. We had fun. Went to Brenham to eat, hung out all day, went to Fudge's house and then went to do Karaoke. It was awesome. Sunday I spent with Marcie and Shawn. We saw the Notebook. It was sooo good. I cried so hard. It was such a great movie. Then they dropped me off at Rickys and we hung out and went to Tomball and watched the fireworks. We hung out with some friends. Then went back to their house and hung out some more an drunk. Finally we came home about 3 am. Today I spent with my friend Brandy and had some gooooood mexican food. It was good. Now I'm watching Cold Mountain and tomorrow I get to go the long way back to Lubbock. I'll be back in August and you can bet I'll have more fun then...

Soooo...

So I am like totally now in a crabby mood. I was happy all day today and then around 10 PM it all came crashing down. I won't go into specifics cause I don't want to hurt peoples feelings or piss them off like they've done me. So anyways other than that I get to take both my finals tomorrow. I believe they both will be quite easy and I'll probably even be done by noon. For some people though this might not be good enough. So if it isn't so what. If it is so what. I really don't give a flying fuck either way now...